Terribly lonely, feel so low, suicide?

That is a common feeling in your situation. I would say that you could present couple's counseling to him as an option and if he declines that, then he obviously doesn't care about saving your marriage and you should just let him go. There are plenty of other guys out there who might be better for you anyway. It is similar to a first love scenario....we all have a boyfriend who is our first love. Once that relationship ends, we think that that guy was the best and we are never going to find another guy like him or better than him...you need to realize that if your husband is having an affair or has his eye on another woman, your relationship is not going to work. Try the counseling thing and if that doesn't work, I would say go through with the divorce.

How to build up my self-esteem?

So I've been overweight since I was like 6. I'm now 15 and I'm not incredibly big, I got tall (like 5'10) but I still have big thighs, arms and stomach. I'm working on losing it. I'm about 30 or so pounds over. I've always been teased about it and called names. Once I started high school people didn't say anything much and I developed a pretty good personality. My boyfriend of 9 months calls me cute, pretty, beautiful and gorgeous. I don't believe him but I don't want to be one of those annoying, whiney girlfriends so I just return the compliment. No body knows, but I was bulimic for almost a year and recently got over it. I've had two big tragedies happen (one affected the whole family, one only me) in the same year and food's been my comfort. I know that's not good. Especially when trying to lose weight. And what doesn't help is that my boyfriend is skinnier than me... He weighs 130 pounds, he's lanky (He's underweight and 6'0 but I still feel like I should be smaller than him). I can look in the mirror and think "Hey... I look okay today." but then I see myself next to him and feel like a whale. I could never leave him over this, I love him so much. Just being around him and seeing his body compared to mine makes me feel like crap. And my height's always been a problem with me. I hate being this tall. Then I see the perfect girls at my school, they're 5'6 or 5'7 and weigh like 110 or 120 pounds. I wish I could be like them. I just feel so ugly, fat and down about myself. Also I took a picture of myself on my webcam with my shirt up (breasts covered) of my stomach for motivation to lose weight. Like I'd look at it and remember how happy I'd be to get rid of it and I think my boyfriend saw it and now I feel so gross. I can only imagine what he thinks. He kept asking why I hid my screen so fast when I pulled up my pictures (I forgot about it) and I told him it was none of his business. He said he thinks he saw a picture but he's not sure what it was. I'm pretty sure he knows that it was me with my shirt up. I'm worried that he thinks I'm sending shirtless pictures to people online or something... But I deleted it and he's dropped the subject since I was uncomfortable with it. I feel embarrassed to tell anyone I'm trying to lose weight. How can I raise my self-esteem so that I don't feel so horrible every day? Thanks.. :)

How can I be so skinny and my twin so curvy? Am I doing something wrong?!?

Claire- when I hear you are 5"11" and 115 pounds- I go wow- that sounds great for a model. If you have not done so already, try to get into modeling. Tall and skinny- wow. I think you got the killer body and should go into modeling. Always be positive- work with on what you have. Nice and tall and skinny. It is possible that your twin is jealous of you. Look in the mirror and go wow- Claire you are so hot.

Daughter-parent relationship troubles?

Don't get me wrong on any of this I love them both a lot, but lately my mom is never home and my dad is either working or sleeping (he is a truck driver) My mom is always working at her friends house down the street (he is a older man) and when they are home all they do is fight. I cant take anymore of their comments about each other. (BTW: my parent s arent married and basically just live together but they have good days and bad). I am used to my dad not being around, but i hate not having my mom here she is at his house almost every day and when shes not she talks about what she did there all the time, and its not that i dont want to hear it its that it used to be me and her doing things now its her and him so yes im jealous but she says he's helping her make money (they work on crafts) something she begged me to help her with so she puts the blame on me. Which i deserve partly but i feel like if she was her i could but i don't feel like cleaning and helping her when im all by myself. I just don't know what to say to her i have tried talking to her about it and when i do i usually get yelled at. What should i do or say to improve and express my point of view. sorry if this is long and confusing. THANK YOU!

How do you fix an airsoft revolver when it doesnt turn?

My savage bull airsoft revolver i got from evike worked for a day but when i fired it the slots that the bullet cases go in, only four worked. two dont turn so if anyone knows how to fix it that would be greatly appreciated. The instruction manual that came with it was also the wrong one :( . its the 6 inch model

How to gain weight the healthy way?

I am 21yrs old 6ft. 130 lbs. The fluxs from 128lbs to 135. I am a runner, varsity soccer player tall lanky guy. I need to get my wieght up to at least 140lbs for requirements to get into the air force. Whats the healthiest way to gain weight? I eat rly healthy and i dont weight lift just cardio. Ive been told many things from gaining wieght before lifting. To just loading calories. Also been recomended to drink ensure, as well as gnc mass xxx weight gainer. Open to sugesstions. Just eating tons of fatty food and doing nothing isnt for me though lol. Ty in advance.

Should my rc nitro engine pop when I try to start it?

I have a Savage XL with the 5.9 motor in it. My question is that when I hook my drill (roto starter) to the motor should the engine popping (compression noise) get faster when I spin the drill faster? It doesn't matter how fast my drill goes, the engine doesn't pop very fast. In fact, sometimes it pops when it wants to even when I have the drill on full blast trying to start it. Why is it doing this?